4 Goals Let in... 3 my fault!!!!

what can i say about the week that just passed by?? may be can call it a week of mixed fortunes... good things... bad things... tougher injury... bad score line... went prawning yesterday which i liked even though i did nothing useful there... Man U won...K Yudah came... but in the midst of this, am i seeing only the bad things that happened? God has always been good to me... then why am i hesitating to trust in Him completely? am i taking decisions on my own without consulting Him? or am i not hearing the Shepherd's voice properly... may be i got my own reasons to take steps or decisions like that... but won't it make Him sad since He has always been good to me...

was wondering yesterday, whether i still got that passion in me which i had for different things... especially soccer...everytime, i am eager to play a game...but i didn't concentrate in yesterday's game... it cost us the match... i was the only one to be blamed... mis-timed my run badly... slid for the ball, but landed in an awkward position and injured my right knee... but why should i let myself down and feel low and loose my passion for things... am i loosing sight of my focus??

may be its because of the season of the year... i think, i need to sleep more these days... otherwise, i can be stressed out easily... let me start hoping that i will be able to sleep long hours... time to hibernate... and let me trust in God more and more...

again, this blog update is during office hours... dont tell this to anyone.. but today i am feeling a bit bored...

A Great day just Passed by!!!!!!!

Yes!!!!!!!!!!! after a long wait, i got to meet K Yudah today along with Ps. Russel Aims... had one of the best days i ever had in singapore...Ps. Russel prayed for me... and K Yudah prayed for me too...again, as he did always, he prayed the best prayer for me... i was in need of all the words that came out of his mouth in prayer... he prayed that god will give me that something which i had before but i lacked over the last one year...

i am tremendously blessed because of him... he has always cried with me when tears came down from my eyes... he has always been there to laugh with me...today also he was no different... thank god for him...

after prayer we had a good fellowship at one of the seafood restaurants at ECP... had a lot to eat.. chilli crab, prawns, fish, veggie, and lot more... had to eat till i couldn't move otherwise food would have been wasted... but K Yudah and Ps. Russel enjoyed the food... and that makes me happy...

when i went to drop them at the airport, kind of felt that i miss the whole of melbourne quite badly... thoughts of going back are coming... may be one day i will go back to live there... lets see how things turn out to be... let God fulfil His will in my life... i prefer to have my wishes alligned to His will... coz K Yudah always says that the safest place to be is in the will of God...

thats it for today... keep smiling and make somebody smile... God bless

Hector or Achilles... Who was the Hero???

“Let them say that I lived during the time of Hector, who tamed forces,
And let them say that I lived during the time of Achilles”

with that sentence ‘Troy’ ends. I watched the movie again yesterday. Was wondering, will I ever be able to leave a legacy behind me. Or will I live and die like any other person on earth. Then what’s the meaning life carries if its to be lived like any other person and die like any other person. That’s why I always believe in dreams. I know that I should dream big. And if everything is going to happen according to the dreams I had, it will be great. Lets see whether it will happen that way or not.

now desperately waiting for K. Yudah to be here on Saturday… during all my tough times during the last 4 years, he had been around as a good listener and a good mentor… this time also, the time of his arrival can’t be better than this Saturday… he will be having a message for me and so does Ps. Russel Aims…

was able to talk to Gitau recently… he was my house mate and best friend while I was in Melbourne…the Kenyan man had a lot to talk about Africa… he taught me a lot about Africa… we both could shout all night long when Man U was playing… even when they played Arsenal, we were the only 2 Man U fans in the middle of scores of Arsenal fans… still we could shout and scream when Scholes drilled in that goal from just outside the 6 yard box in 2004 FA Cup semi final… we cooked chicken together which always turned out to be gross but still ate it till it finished making fun of each others part in the cooking series… thank god, he is doing well even though there were political tensions in Kenya, he is safe… God bless u my brother!!!

Mothers...

When God was creating mothers, He was into His sixth day of "overtime" when an angel appeared and said, "You're doing a lot of fiddling around on this one."

And God said, "Have you read the specifications on this order? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic. Have 180 moveable parts....all replaceable. Run on black coffee and leftovers. Have a lap that disappears when she stands up. A kiss that can cure anything from a broken leg to a disappointed love affair. And, six pairs of hands." The angel shook her head slowly and said "Six pairs of hands....no way."

"It's not the hands that are causing me problems," said God, "It's the three pairs of eyes that mothers have to have.

"That's on the standard model?" asked the angel.

God nodded. "One pair that sees through closed doors when she asks, 'What are you kids doing in there?' when she already knows. Another here in the back of her head that sees what she shouldn't but what she has to know, and of course, the ones here in front that can look at a child when he goofs up and say, 'I understand and I love you', without so much as uttering a word."

"You should scrap it and start over." said the angel.

"I can't," said God, "I'm so close to creating something so close to myself. Already I have one who heals herself when she is sick...can feed a family of six on one pound of hamburger...and can get a nine-year-old to stand under a shower."

The angel circled the model of a mother very slowly. "It's too soft," she sighed.

"But tough," said God excitedly. "You cannot imagine what this mother can do or endure."

"Can it think?" asked the angel.

"Not only think, but it can reason and compromise." said the Creator.

Finally, the angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek. "There's a leak!" she pronounced. "I told you you're trying too put too much into this model."

"It's not a leak" said God "it's a tear."

"What's it for?" asked the angel.

"It's for joy, sadness, disappointment, pain, loneliness, and pride."

"You are a genius!" said the angel.

God looked somber and said softly ......"I didn't put it there."

Author Unknown.

got to see this in some website... indeed God did a great job when he created mothers...

today is a happy day... JS and Esther got baptized... JS didn't mess up things on stage as i thought he would... he did pretty well up there...YX and veron too got baptized along with little Gideon... happy for all of them and thanking God for their lives...

on a smaller note... got thrashed by Aldersgate 5 -2... we played a very good game except for a crazy 5 minutes in second half where they whacked in 3 goals... we did much better that what we thought we would... will be going out for dinner soon... take care...Laugh and make someone laugh... God Bless

A Tribute to the Lady I love the Most

this love affair starts from time unknown to me... a time when i was still in her womb...she told me i used to move around a lot while i was there... she told, when i started growing in her womb, i was not alone, there was a tumor also growing alongside me... doctors told her that i won't be born... she chose not to believe in them but chose to believe in the God who promised her a son... she went through a surgery... the pain was a lot...tumor was removed... but doctors told her, there's only a very little chance to have me without any defects... it was most likely that i will be born without limbs...again she chose to believe in the God who promised a healthy baby... and God, like He did, every other time, honoured her simple faith in Him... she worked till the previous day of my birth, exercised a lot as in walking long distances and doing house work, so as to keep me healthy...

once out of her womb, i wasn't nice at all... have always been naughty... she was forced to send me to play school when i was only 2 1/2 years old... coz the house was a mess everyday when she came back from work... when i became more and more naughty as i grew up... she started getting worried but never showed that outside... she started fasting for me every wednesdays and she continued that till i was around 17... those days when i woke up earlier than usual, i used to see her sitting some corner of the room with her eyes closed... a tear drop outside her eyes... she was praying for me every day without fail...

as i grew up, i was changing for the worse... there was not even a single day i had in school without any complaints... always picked up fights... stole money from home...change marks in the report card...tell lies for everything...and the list went on and on...still she kept praying the same way she did... a time came when i was 13, i was so naughty, that my parents were told by my school that they can't have me there anymore...time was too little to find admission in another school... and i saw my mom pleading to the principal (first time i saw her pleading to any person)... i felt i was the worst son on planet earth...

her health wasn't good all these while... one of the disc on her spine slips everytime... this caused immense pain for her... but still when i visit her in the hospital she always gave me the best smile she ever had... even in that pain she would hug me and kiss me... and when i leave her room, i used to hear her cry coz of pain...

years passed by so quickly... i left for studies to another town and stayed in a hostel...still i always tried to stay close to troubles... coz i was always proud, that nothing bad will happen to me coz i got someone back home who everyday kneel down near her bed with a bad spine and cry out to God to gaurd me wherever i was... even with that kind of prayer, i managed to get one suspension from school while i was doing engineering...

time still passed... i went overseas for my master's...i came down to singapore after that...still she kept on praying for me... last year when i went through the toughest time in my life, i went back home... she came to pick me up at airport...hugged me... i felt my fears and pain vanished... we reached home... i lied down with my head on her lap... she just ran her hand through my hair... tears were flowing down my eyes... she cried along with me...she didn't bother me with anything during my stay there... but i could see the mental pain she was in during the time...i never ate properly... she didn't force me to eventhough she cooked what ever i liked to eat... i never prayed nor read the bible... she didn't ask me to but she knew that her prayers will never be in vain...when i was about to return to singapore... at the airport she hugged me and kissed me on my forehead... i could see a similar tear drop in her eyes to the one which i saw years back while she was praying during those early hours of the day without disturbing my sleep...

today, on the eve of another mother's day, when i look back to those 26 years i passed through, what else can i thank God for other than the life of this wonderful woman... 26 years has changed her a lot... now her hairs are white mostly... she doesn't have the mental strength she used to have before and neither got the physical strength... but one thing kept growing, her faith in the Almighty... i see in her a lady who never got a chance to live for herself...always she has been living for someone else... she took care of her parents well till she got married... after that she looked after her in-laws even though she was treated very badly by all of them... she took leave from work for long time to look after her mother in law who was bed-ridden...after that she lived for my sister and myself...now she looks after my dad who is almost bed- ridden... a life that has got meaning... a life thats worthy of living...

what have i given her back?? or will anything i give be good enough to thank her for her life or what she has done for me till now?? all i can say to her is THANK YOU AMMA... I LOVE U MORE THAN ANYTHING ON PLANET EARTH... FOR ME NOTHING IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN U... I AM BLESSED COZ U GAVE ME BIRTH... COZ U BROUGHT ME UP... COZ U CRIED OUT TO GOD FOR ME... AND ALL WHAT I AM TODAY AND WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO BE IN FUTURE IS BECAUSE OF THOSE TEARS THAT CAME FROM YOUR EYES....LOVE U AMMA....

yes... i wish a Blessed Mother's day to all the mothers and the mothers to be (especially my good friend and sis Eleesl)...

Preliminaries or Myanmar???

For the past few days, everyday when I read a newspaper, no matter which one, Sun, Mirror, BBC, Timesonline, Reuters, Independent, Indian Express or Kerala Kaumudi, they got a lot to write about Preliminaries in US…is that something that really matters?? Does it really matters whether its Clinton or Obama or McCain the next President?? Is the American policies going to change??? Or is it just another American hype to get people more interested in a country called United States of America?? Have never seen in the past, the preliminaries being so important… tens of thousands have been dying in Myanmar coz of Cyclone Nargis… is that given enough coverage by any of these news broadcasters?? Priorities of people have been changing drastically… similarly priorities of news broadcasters also might be changing… earlier broadcasters wanted to give the most striking news… now broadcasters want to give the news that would give them more coverage… there is a big difference between the two…its high time, journalists go back to stick on to the basics of journalism… otherwise, reading news will become a kind of formality for people like me… but then, who cares about me???

Work has been easy for the past 2 days… but the pain in my jaw is increasing daily… finding it difficult to open my mouth to eat, yawn or sneeze… need to go to a doctor one of these days… but then again, am I not the person who hates to take medicines?? Especially antibiotics… I hate them to the core… would have been good if the doctor can say BHOOM and my pain is gone…

Btw, don’t tell anyone that I am updating blog during work hours… already got enough yesterday for taking MCs…it was an all sided attack... i was standing like a chicken that was rounded by eagles... so now no more MC, even if I am sick I guess…:(

30 Questions & Answers about Me...

1. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN A THEATER:

Cycle (went with GR and Danny…that was a horrible thing to watch… especially wasting $12… Guess Vineeth Sreenivasan should continue with singing rather than trying to imitate his father…)

2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?

‘Don’t Waste Your Life’ by John Piper. K. Yudah (my pastor in Melbourne) introduced the book to me. Am enjoying it… planning to continue ‘Christ: A Crisis in the life of God’ by Jack Miles.

3. FAVORITE BOARD GAME?

As usual, Chess. Have been playing online a lot these days…

4. FAVORITE MAGAZINE?

Forgot the days when I last read a magazine… So I guess, TIME and NEWSWEEK are still my favorites

5. FAVORITE SMELLS?

The smell of earth after the first rain. (Don’t have that in Singapore… have to wait till I go back to Trivandrum… and hoping that it will rain when I am there…)

6. FAVORITE SOUND?

Rain… Yes, again its something to do with rain… I love the sound of rain falling on asbestos, sound of rain in the jungle… sound of heavy rain falling on water surface… rain falling on steel plates… RAIN RAIN RAIN

7. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?

When I want to do something but don’t have courage to do it… I hate that kind of feeling (am i going through that now?)…

8. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE?

“I will sleep for 5 more min”

9. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?

Dhabas (Roadside shops in India)… they give the most unhealthy food… but got the best taste…

10. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME?

Guess I should find my future wife first…. Then only need to think of kids and their names… Can ask my future wife whether she will let the child’s name be Keane or Cantona or Schmeichel… Hopefully she won’t beat me up…

11. FINISH THIS STATEMENT. "IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY I'D...?

“Resign my job, hop on to a flight that takes me to some place that’s far… buy a farmhouse near the lake… bring my cell mates there to party… Have BBQ every other night…

12. DO YOU DRIVE FAST?

Not anymore… those days are gone when I could drive at 100 when the speed limit is 60… now would drive at 60 if the speed limit is 60… or may be even at 55…

13. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?

I don’t need anything for a sound sleep… let alone STUFFED ANIMAL…can sleep anywhere… anytime…thank God

14. STORMS-COOL OR SCARY?

Last Time I was in a mini-storm, I thought it will make me fly and bash me on to the nearby wall… so indeed its scary… but to see the tall trees swaying in the storm is good... so storms are scary as well as cool...

15. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?

Fiat (Premier Padmini)

16. FAVORITE DRINK?

Ice Milo with more milo and more milk…

17. FINISH THIS STATEMENT, "IF I HAD THE TIME I WOULD ..... write that book.(Am I kidding? I would sleep longer. )

18. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS ON BROCCOLI?

I eat everything that’s beneath sky… so forget about stem… I will eat the root of broccoli also…

19. IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR, WHAT WOULD BE YOUR CHOICE?

Would I do that??? If I do… may be brown…

20. NAME ALL THE DIFFERENT CITIES/TOWNS YOU HAVE LIVED IN.

Not a big list… Trivandrum (that’s my home)… Cochin (did lot of freud things there in a period of 3 ½ years)…Melbourne (missing that place a lot… hell lot)… and now in Singapore (believing that this is the place of my Destiny…)

21. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?

Football (in some places they call it Soccer too)… Cricket, Basketball, Tennis, Badminton, Hockey…

22. FAVORITE FOOD

Now that can be a big list…Happy with anything that contains Beef or Pork (need to be well done though)… Hokkien Mee in the food court opposite my block is quite good (have been having that at least twice a week lately)… Stingray at East Coast Park…Mussels at Fish & Co…Kavurma Kebab from Footscray, Melbourne… Donuts sold by an old man in Melbourne… Fish Curry and Tapioca from toddy shops in Kerala…and the list goes on and on…

23. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED?

Haven’t looked beneath my bed for long time… need to have a look one of these days to know whether there is some nest of some birds or reptiles…

24. WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE BORN AS YOURSELF AGAIN?

Yes please. Wouldn’t trade places for all the gold and silver the world has to offer.

25. MORNING PERSON, OR NIGHT OWL?

Night night night… I hate early mornings… Guess I have Morning Sickness…hihihi

“They called me an owl
For I keep the stars company.
And when the world stirs to life,
I turn my back upon it.
And like the wicked vampire
I return at dusk
To suck life out of night.”

26. OVER EASY, OR SUNNY SIDE UP?

Sunny Side Up. Isn’t that a cheerful way to start a day??

27. FAVORITE PLACE TO RELAX?

In the shade of the trees in a lonely island which I will buy for myself… But till then my bed would be good enough

28. FAVORITE PIE?

American Pie (laughed my heart out seeing that)… An apple pie would be ok… but I don’t eat much pies

29. FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?

Rum n’ Raisin, Mango

30. OF ALL THE PEOPLE YOU TAGGED THIS TO, WHO'S MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST?

I am not going to tag this to anyone… if anyone reads this here.. please feel free to answer those 30 questions