Back Again!!

am back again... after some time...

today God re-assured me of something which i aready know of... got assured that its in our weakest moments that His strength perfects in us... some bad things happened ... and it did affect me badly... i didn't sleep well... went to church in the morning... didnt listen to sermon or anything... was feeling burdened... but since jeremy was sitting next to me, i just acted as if i was listening... there was no alter call today but i wished there was one... i wanted to be prayed for... didnt happen... i wanted to talk... couldn't... had breakfast from McDonalds... i was feeling sleepy and tired and burdened.. so didnt talk to anyone much...

came home and slept for a while... but that was not enough for my burden to reduce... i was missing home quite badly... and i was supposed to play soccer at 5... always when i am burdened, i mess up things during the game... and i was very worried... coz i already caused the team a match and we can't afford to loose this game... i prayed hard... but was having fear in me... when the game started, i couldn't cheer the team on... i was just standing there hoping that ball won't come near me... but then as the game progressed, things changed... felt more confident... ended up having a good game... not just that we won the game, i didn't commit mistakes...

while i was coming back, this thought was coming back again and again in my mind that its when we r weak, then we are strong!!! its in our weakness that His strength perfects in us... i was not even being my usual self today... usually when i am stressed, i sleep and everything is back to normal... today i couldn't even sleep properly... usually, i try to keep things to myself... but today, i was looking for people to talk to... but after the game and after a short quiet time, i know one thing... i will just remain myself... i wont fear weak moments... i am more than a conqueror!!!

but still the missing home part is there... i am missing home lately... may be i will ask boss for leave and have a short holiday... atleast for 5 days... missing sis...

do drop a word of prayer for me if u happen to read this... keep smiling... make someone laugh... God Bless