Law of Garbage Truck

One day, I hopped into a taxi and took off for the airport . We were driving in the right lane when suddenly, a black car, jumped out of a parking space right in front of us. My taxi driver slammed the brakes, skidded, and missed the other car by just inches! The driver of the other car whipped his head around and started yelling at us. My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. I mean, was really friendly. So I asked, "Why did you just do that? This guy almost ruined your car and sent us to the hospital!" This is when my taxi driver taught me what I now call, 'The Law of the Garbage Truck' He explained, "Many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it and sometimes they'll dump it on you. NEVER take it personally. Just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on with the routine life." Don't take their garbage and spread it to other people at work, at home or on the streets. The bottom line is that successful people do not let garbage trucks take over their day. Life's too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so...... 'Love the people who treat you right.. Pray for the ones who don't. 'A very rightly said quote: Life is 10% what you make and 90% how you take!!!!

Law of Garbage Truck

One day, I hopped into a taxi and took off for the airport . We were driving in the right lane when suddenly, a black car, jumped out of a parking space right in front of us. My taxi driver slammed the brakes, skidded, and missed the other car by just inches! The driver of the other car whipped his head around and started yelling at us. My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. I mean, was really friendly. So I asked, "Why did you just do that? This guy almost ruined your car and sent us to the hospital!" This is when my taxi driver taught me what I now call, 'The Law of the Garbage Truck'

He explained, "Many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it and sometimes they'll dump it on you. NEVER take it personally. Just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on with the routine life." Don't take their garbage and spread it to other people at work, at home or on the streets.

The bottom line is that successful people do not let garbage trucks take over their day. Life's too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so...... 'Love the people who treat you right.. Pray for the ones who don't.

'A very rightly said quote: Life is 10% what you make and 90% how you take!!!!

BACK BACK BACK... BACK TO MY BEST !!!!!!!

for nearly a month, i was struggling… i thought it was because i was missing dad… till yesterday night i believed that way…or i was forcing myself to believe that way… but yesterday night, i started asking god why i am so much burdened… why He is not doing anything to make me feel better… i haven’t cried for the past 1 ½ years… even when dad passed away, i didn’t…yesterday, i wanted to cry badly… but not even a single tear drop came down from my eyes… may be coz the last time i cried, i cried so badly that it dried up the tears… and since it dried up, i couldn’t cry yesterday…i asked god, why he is being so cruel to me… first there was no answer… but i kept pestering Him… till He started to talk… He told me that it was not because i couldn’t cry, i feel burdened, neither because of dad… its also not because of things at home too… but its because of something that i was holding on to, deep in my heart… for few months already… God was very specific…He asked me to let go of it… i said, “God, its hard”… He told me that His grace is sufficient for me… it was a kind of wrestling in my heart then for the next few minutes… felt a pain deep in my heart… but i decided and told God that i am letting it go coz i don’t want to be a hindrance to God’s blessing in my life…when i said that prayer loud, i don’t know from where, but my heart begin to calm down… i could feel the peace in my heart… after that i could sleep well too… peaceful sleep, which i didn’t have for at least a month… God is awesome…

till yesterday, i was more worried about going back home… no excitement… no thrill… was tensed about things waiting for me there… but today whole thing changed… i am excited… thrilled… i am looking forward to hopping on to the flight… I can’t wait to be back there… like the usual cheerful person whom my mom has always seen… i can feel that i am back to my best… the same optimistic man who could take on anything that’s coming against him… i am back… no more complaining!!! i can see now why eve said, i have changed a lot… i thought that changes was coz, dad was no longer there to guide me… but yesterday god reminded me that the guidance i got till now was never from dad, it was from heaven… which is very true… and it will be the same from now on too… i won’t depend on any man for guidance… coz my guidance comes from the Almighty… i am excited… am excited for the greater heights that’s waiting for me…

and even as i write this, i can feel the peace within me… YES!!! i am ready to take on any adventure that’s coming my way…coz according to K.Yudah, TOUGH TIMES NEED TOUGH MEN, TOUGH TIMES WILL PASS BUT TOUGH MEN WILL STAY…and i know that if i am going through a test, it means i am being prepared for a testimony… i thought i will fail this time…but god reminded me that there will always be one winner when it comes to my struggle with stress… that’s ME… not because of who i am, but because the grace that surrounds me is toooooo big for me to fail…

keep smiling guys… make someone laugh too… God Bless

Wet Pants

Come with me to a third grade classroom..... There is a nine-year-old kid sitting at his desk and all of a sudden, there is a puddle between his feet and the front of his pants are wet. He thinks his heart is going to stop because he cannot possibly imagine how this has happened. It's never happened before, and he knows that when the boys find out he will never hear the end of it. When the girls find out, they'll never speak to him again as long as he lives.

The boy believes his heart is going to stop; he puts his head down and prays this prayer, 'Dear God, this is an emergency! I need help now! Five minutes from now I'm dead meat.'

He looks up from his prayer and here comes the teacher with a look in her eyes that says he has been discovered.

As the teacher is walking toward him, a classmate named Susie is carrying a goldfish bowl that is filled with water. Susie trips in front of the teacher and inexplicably dumps the bowl of water in the boy's lap.

The boy pretends to be angry, but all the while is saying to himself, 'Thank you, Lord! Thank you, Lord!' Now all of a sudden, instead of being the object of ridicule, the boy is the object of sympathy. The teacher rushes him downstairs and gives him gym shorts to put on while his pants dry out. All the other children are on their hands and knees cleaning up around his desk. The sympathy is wonderful. But as life would have it, the ridicule that should have been his has been transferred to someone else - Susie.

She tries to help, but they tell her to get out. You've done enough, you klutz!'

Finally, at the end of the day, as they are waiting for the bus, the boy walks over to Susie and whispers, 'You did that on purpose, didn't you?' Susie whispers back, 'I wet my pants once too.'

May God help us see the opportunities that are always around us to do good... Remember.....Just going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than standing in your garage makes you a car.

Each and everyone one of us is going through tough times right now, but God is getting ready to bless you in a way that only He can. Keep the faith.

Daddy's Poem

Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favourite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today.

But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees a dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats

One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching, a man who wasn't there.

'Where's her daddy at?' She heard a boy call out. 'She probably doesn't have one,' another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back, she heard a daddy say, 'Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day.

'The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her Mom. And looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on.

And with hands behind her back, slowly she began to speak. And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique.

'My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so far away. But I know he wishes he could be, since this is such a special day.

And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know. All about my daddy, and how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me storie she taught me to ride my bike. He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a cone. And though you cannot see him. I'm not standing here alone.

'Cause my daddy's al ways with me, even though we are apart I know because he told me, he'll forever be in my heart

With that, her little hand reached up, and lay across her chest. Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favourite dress.

And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads, her mother stood in tears. Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years.

For she stood up for the love of a man not in her life. Doing what was best for her, doing what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd. She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud.

'I love my daddy very much, he's my shining star. And if he could, he'd be here, but heaven's just too far.

You see he is a Canadian soldier And died just this past year When a roadside bomb hit his convoy and taught Canadians to fear.

But sometimes when I close my eyes, it's like he never went away.' And then she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day.

And to her mothers amazement, she witnessed with surprise. A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them, who knows what they felt inside. Perhaps for merely a second, they saw him at her side.

'I know you're with me Daddy,' to the silence she called out. And what happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been closed. But there on the desk beside her, was a fragrant long-stemmed rose.

And a child was blessed, if only for a moment, by the love of her shining star. And given the gift of believing, that heaven is never too far.

My New Beginning !!!

after nearly 3 years of struggle with the liver disease, dad is gone...he went to be with the lord on 13th Nov, 9.55 pm... that week before was a struggle for me... my mind was not controlled... thoughts were wandering here and there... i feared whether i will be able to see dad again alive, when i booked my tickets to india on dec 25th... i had the fear in me... i told the same to jeremy... and it happened that way itself...

when i heard of the news, it was a kind of black out... i didn't know how to respond... just knew that, next day i had to get my tickets and fly off... i feared for mom... she has always been a strong person... but, she has been with dad for 42 years... was worried how she will take it... i called my manager, got my leave, on friday morning... got my tickets and flew off in the evening... JS dropped me at the airport...he was of great help that day...

when i reached home, i saw dad's body... i didn't cry... held myself strong... sat next to amma... she wasn't crying... she told me to thank God for all the good things He has done for us... she was strong as usual... i just sat next to her... my niece came and sat on my lap and was crying...

next day, we were asked by the pastor to talk about dad in the funeral... i shared my thoughts about dad...i said that i didn't have to look up to another person other than my dad to learn how to be a good husband and a good father... coz my dad was both a good husband and a father... he took care of all our physical needs... for the past 42 years of their marriage, mom didn't have to take care of anything... coz everything was taken care of for her... i told about him apologizing to me in public after he beat me without reason coz of a misunderstanding... usually in india, dads won't do that... but my dad was more than just a dad to me...

people told didfferent things about him... my pastor said that he was a man without a mask... always he admitted when he was wrong... he accepted corrections without any anger at heart... and was teachable... he was a good host... he loved to serve people... and he taught us, "DO GOOD TO PEOPLE WITHOUT EXPECTING A REWARD, COZ REWARD COMES FROM ABOVE"... he practised that in his life... he taught my sister and me to be together in good and tough times... told us to support each other when one is weak... when people said many good things about dad, a couple of drops of tears rolled down my cheeks.... but i was sure that i was not going to be a cry baby... coz i know, i will soon see dad again...

after the funeral, my niece had surgery for appendix to be removed... so i was in hospital for like 3 whole days... sleeping there... coz my niece wanted me to be there... she even asked the doc whether i can accompany her to the operation theatre...

was very tough time for the family and myself... i lost weight... neard 5 kgs... now i am 60 kgs only... and i survived the tough time...i could feel that Grace was all around me throughout this period...AMAZING GRACE...

i am missing dad.. but i thank god for bringing me to this world as the son of 2 great parents.... this might be the new beginning God wanted me to have...LIFE AFTER DAD IS GONE... thats my new beginning for the Year of New Beginnings... more responsibilities...

thank you dad for all the things u have done for me... thank you for the ways you cared for me... thank you for being there always... thank you for teaching me to have a positive attitude in life... thanks for everything... Love u dad... miss u terribly...

A Confused Old Man

may be because i had to travel for long time everyday, i have been thinking a lot these days... may be due to that, i am confused... confused with lot of things...not sure what to do... not sure what step to take next... don't know whether i am listening to God's voice or listening to what my mind says...is my optimistic nature going down the slope... every time i prayed that i wanted to be an optimist... Optimism is trusting in God completely and believing in Romans 8:28 (for those who love god and for those who are called according to His purpose, ALL THINGS work together for GOOD)... from that, its clear that i am not trusting God the way i am supposed to... and trusting God has always been my strength... means i am weak now... terribly weak... need to get back to my normal self....

dad has been very sick... don't know how things are being managed at home by amma and sis... hopefully everything will be ok... plz do pray for him... most probably i will be going back in dec... so this time, i hope to have christmas and new year with dad... or atleast either one of them... lets see how things work out...

work has been good during the last week... got to come back home everyday at 5 30... food is good... people are good... nothing to complain except for the travelling part... so thank god for that...

not feeling to type in anything more... till you see me here next time, do take care... keep smiling and make someone laugh... God Bless

A Good Weekend and A Good Message

last weekend was pretty good... happened to stay over night at JS' place... liverpool lost to spurs... service was good on sunday... baby zach came to church for the first time... he was comfortable throughout the service... message by P.Dom was good... infact it was one of the best messages i ever heard from him...

he was talking about Transformational Leaders from Mark 4:35 -42... the pointers goes like this...
1. a transformational leader knows the time and season and knows what to do.
2. a transformation leader speak into the life of people... he speaks life, encouragement and hope.
3. a transformational leader leaves the crowd of one's security to walk in the line of faith.
4. a transformational leader is a model... he leads the way.
5. a transformational leader does not run away from problems... he faces the problems... he prays for the enablement to go through the storm... he meets the storm head on and get break through.

i terribly wish i can be a leader like that...someone who knows the time and season and wouldn't let a season pass by without knowing it... someone who speak into the life of people, speak only positive things...someone who walks daily in faith and be a model where ever i am placed... and someone who has the courage to face storms head on... not as someone who tends to hide when the storm strikes... i have started praying for that... i want to be a transformational leader... i am desperate for it... let God answer my prayer...

tomorrow onwards, have to go to JB everyday... travelling is going to take much out of me... especially coz of the recurring back pain... everything will be alrite i guess... need plenty of grace during this time... plz do pray for me... your prayers will be highly appreciated...

till i get time to update something here again, do keep smiling and make someone laugh...

Back from KL

had a short trip to KL over the weekend after attending Jimmy's wedding... went with one of my good friends and both of us enjoyed the trip and we laughed a lot, remembered school days, talked about old school mates... had fun... just that my back ache is recurring... otherwise altogether it was fun...

but, i did miss sunday service at church... for me, if i don't attend service on sunday, its kind of missing something for the rest of the week... and indeed i am missing that something now... don't know what exactly that something is though...

heard from mom that dad is getting better... still in hospital... mom is struggling but she is keeping herself strong... same like my sis... hopefully everything will be fine soon... don't know whether i will be able to go back in december... very hard to find tickets... almost all sold out... have to wait and see whether i will be able to get any soon... otherwise will look for some short trip to some neighbouring country...

hope everyone of you guys are doing good... till u get to read something here next time, keep smiling and make someone laugh... God Bless

I WILL PRESS ON!!!!

a tough week ended... but at the end of the week, i still survived... so nothing to complain about... i may have messed up things... but i choose not to stay in that mess... and i am hoping for an amazing week ahead... and thats a good thing about being a christian... i got hope... i am hoping for the best... sometimes, reality strikes as if i have been thrown out of my position and bashed onto a wall... but i won't remain in my ruins... coz i got hope for a better tomorrow...

heard from mom today that dad was discharged from hospital... thanks to all who prayed... especially my cell... his haemoglobin level increased and pains reduced... so, i am happy about that...

my back pain is pestering me... may be will have to see a doctor soon... hopefully can be better with physiotherapy or something... now again have to think of stopping soccer... but i will try playing with flextronics people since they have been asking me to join them for long time... hopefully pain won't get worse...

today had steam boat with cell group members.. enjoyed it... and i enjoyed the anderson's ice cream most... rum and raisin... my fav... got to see baby zach... he is looking good... have grown up a bit too...

will update here, if something happens... till then smile and make someone laugh...

Everything Happens for a Good Reason

from www.timepassmails.com

sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there...to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

and sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart.

everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul.

without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

the people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create whom you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

if someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything that you possibly can, for you may never experience it again.

talk to people whom you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold you head up because you have every right to.

tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create you own life and then go out and live it.

ALWAYS HAVE A DREAM !!!

Forget about the days
when its been cloudy, but
don't forget your hours in the sun

Forget about the times
you've been defeated, but
don't forget the victories you've won

Forget about mistakes
that you can't change now, but
don't forget the lessons
that you've learnt

Forget about misfortunes
you encounter, but
don't forget the times
your luck has turned

Forget about the days
when you've been lonely, but
don't forget the friendly smiles you've seen

Forget about the plans
that didn't seem
to work out right, but
Don't forget to Always Have A Dream!

Always Have a Dream!!!

Forget about the days

when its been cloudy, but

don't forget your hours in the sun

Forget about the times

you've been defeated, but

don't forget the victories you've won

Forget about mistakes

that you can't change now, but

don't forget the lessons

that you've learnt

Forget about misfortunes

you encounter, but

don't forget the times

your luck has turned

Forget about the days

when you've been lonely, but

don't forget the friendly smiles you've seen

Forget about the plans

that didn't seem

to work out right, but

Don't forget to Always Have A Dream!

Everything has got a Season

happened to remember a few verses from the bible that kept me strong during tough times in the past… thought of typing it down here… from NASB version…

Ecc. 1: 1-7, 14 –15
1 The words of the Preacher, the son of David, king in Jerusalem.
2 Vanity of vanities," says the Preacher, "Vanity of vanities! All is vanity."
3 What advantage does man have in all his work Which he does under the sun?
4 A generation goes and a generation comes, But the earth remains forever.
5 Also, the sun rises and the sun sets; And hastening to its place it rises there again.
6 Blowing toward the south, Then turning toward the north, The wind
continues swirling along; And on its circular courses the wind returns.
7 All the rivers flow into the sea, Yet the sea is not full. To the place where
the rivers flow, There they flow again.

14 I have seen all the works which have been done under the sun,
and behold, all is vanity and striving after wind.
15 What is crooked cannot be straightened and what is lacking
cannot be counted.

this was the passage that that kept me going when i was to leave my home for the first time aged 17… mom taught me this passage… when i cried, she told me everything around us is meaningless and only God is real and asked me to hold on to him… i held on to this passage… every time i feel i miss something or someone, i hold on to this passage coz everything around me is an illusion which will be with me for short time or as long as i live… nothing is permanent… tough to think that way but i am trained to think that way…

Ecc. 3:1 – 8
1 There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every
event under heaven--
2 A time to give birth and a time to die; A time to plant and a time to uproot
what is planted.
3 A time to kill and a time to heal; A time to tear down and a time to build up.
4 A time to weep and a time to laugh; A time to mourn and a time to dance.
5 A time to throw stones and a time to gather stones; A time to embrace and
a time to shun embracing.
6 A time to search and a time to give up as lost; A time to keep and a time to
throw away.
7 A time to tear apart and a time to sew together; A time to be silent and a
time to speak.
8 A time to love and a time to hate; A time for war and a time for peace.

this is another passage taught by mom… when ever I complained to her that i didn’t get what I deserved, she told me that there is a time for everything… for anything to happen beneath sky, there is a time… was tough to digest in the beginning… i struggled to give up on things which I felt I deserved…but the last 10 years away from home was good enough to teach me that there is a time for everything… since i am taught how to give up… now, it’s a very small struggle only to give up… at times i don’t even have to struggle even when its something i feel i deserve… so its much easier to give up on something i know i don’t deserve at all… coz by now i learnt that nothing is permanent and everything got a time… a time predestined by the Almighty… and this was the same passage which made me sign up for cclt… someone told me from this passage that i shouldn’t let a season pass by without knowing it…

btw, attended an interview yesterday… wish i could get that… but not pinning much hope on that... company is smaller but job scope is better… i would rather choose a better job scope than a bigger company… so fingers crossed now… lets see if that’s God’s will for me…

after the interview, i chose to walk till the mrt… it was a good 45 minute walk… even now don’t know why i chose to walk… it was bright and sunny… once i decided to walk, it became dark and clouds came up… i wanted to change my mind… i saw a empty cab driving towards me… but something within me was asking me to continue walking… so i didn’t get the cab… continued walking… during that time i kept thinking about the ways God has led me till now… provided everything that He felt would be beneficial for me… both big and small… those days, when i kept looking out through the window of my room without knowing how i will buy my next meal, He provided… when autumn started and i didn’t have money to buy jackets, while i was shivering inside my clothes, He provided me with jackets and sweaters… not 1 but 3… like that lot of things came to my mind… i kept on walking… seemed that it will rain anytime soon… but it didn’t rain till i reached a sheltered way which led to the mrt… another 15 minutes walk till I reach mrt… it didn’t wait to rain till i reached mrt but not even a single drop of rain fell on me coz i was already in the sheltered way… while i was walking under the shelter, He told me that He even cares for small things such as me walking in rain too…

so it was a fruitful day altogether… but not all fruits are sweet, some are sour too… haha... do keep praying for me and for dad too in case u read this one… just pray that I won’t loose my focus… and pray that dad will be out of hospital soon… thanks in advance for praying…

till u get to read something from here next time, keep smiling and make someone laugh… God Bless

A Win after Long time... 4 - 3

after a long time, i am back here... nothing has been happening in life... then what to write??

today played soccer...it has been quite a while since any of the teams i played for won a soccer match... either we lost or we drew... today, happen to play for one local team... playing with them for the first time and from the league table itself, knew that they are not good... they conceded 29 goals in last 3 games and scored none and thats where i was going to play... i was expecting the opponents to score at least 5 goals and win comfortably as the opponents were Credit Suisse and they were much above the team i played for in the league... seems to be good team with lot of Caucasians... first half, they created plenty of chances but somehow didn't score... we scored somewhere in between... the first goal by this team in this tournament... second have saw 6 goals shared equally by both teams... and hence our team emerging the winners... to be honest i don't know how to pronounce our team name even now... they asked whether i can join them on a regular basis... its hard to commit... i told i will join when possible...

today service was very good... i enjoyed it... happened to see eric after long time... quite happy to see him... Ps. Bee was good... Ps. Gerald's message was good too... these day's i am starting to like his messages more... if u ask me a year back, who is the pastor whose message i would want to skip... first name that will come out of my mouth without any hesitation will be Ps. Gerald... but for last few months, his messages has been awesome...the way he puts his messages has changed and guess he will soon become my favourite pastor in trinity...

enjoyed lunch today... food was good... fellowship was good... so all together sunday was good...

yesterday also was good except for Eagle Eye... went with jer, sun, eve, alv and reb to K Box... first time i've been there... even though i don't sing, i like it when i spent time with my cell members... so like every time, i enjoyed the time i spent with them yesterday... and after that went to meet vasu, my batchmate from undergrad... got to laugh a lot...lot of undergrad memories... had dinner from Carls Jr... was craving for it for last couple of days... i enjoyed it... watched Eagle Eye after that... first of all i don't like those kind of movies... and somehow, most of the things in Eagle Eye didn't make sense to me... so didn't enjoy it at all...

but other than that.. weekend was good.. enjoyed it... thank god for every good times He is giving me in my life... i don't know when i will type in something here next... so, till then, keep smiling and make someone laugh...

haven't been typing anything in here for long time... infact got nothing to type in...

Am I Losing Focus??

I think i am trying to make a mess of things... i should stop it... i shouldn't loose focus of my call... i am called for a divine purpose... so the chances for me to loose focus is more... but i shouldn't... i need more grace these days... much much more... just to keep my priorities right... plz pray for me...

kind of missing amma quite badly these days... i didnt get time with her at all last time... thinking of going back in december... then can go to maldives too, with my sis and niece... but very hard to manage time due to the malaysian thing... have to wait and see...

nothing much to write these days... no mood to type in things... so may i won't be typing in anything here... till the next entry u guys keep smiling and make someone laugh...

Happy Anniversary to my Parents

today is achan and amma's anniversary... 42nd one... they have been together for quite some time now... guess, if it was anyone except amma, she would have left achan years back... but amma has kept up with everything... but she was well taken care of by achan too... they know each other too well and through out these 42 years, amma never kept a secret from achan... at times, i hide things from amma coz i know that if i tell her, it will reach achan's ears... but they have amazed me in different ways... sometimes when they argue, i think they will never talk to each other again... but after 10 minutes, they act as if they never argued... just now, i called them to wish them... dad is not at his best... but he is excited... they r giving a small party today evening... wish i was there... but as long as they are happy, i am happy too...

updates from me is that throat pain is pestering me for past 5 days... today my whole body is aching... haven't seen the doctor yet... i don't like taking antibiotics... i hate them... so i prefer not to see a doctor... but if its necessary, i will see one of these days...

am nearly done with cclt (care cell leader training)... just one more lesson to go... but aweful lot of assignments to complete... need to submit in 2 weeks time... should find time to complete everything... kind of getting worried about being AL and all... need to trust god more... wish i could chat with K Yudah one of these days...

on saturday watched wall-e with cell... liked the movie... was good... not much talking in there... but as a whole, the movie was good... before the movie, they showed the trailer for madgascar 2... want to watch it... the first part has made me laugh a lot... so wouldn't want to miss the second one...

nothing much other than these things... u guys take care... smile and make someone laugh... Gbu

Some Quotes

happened to read through some of the quotes that inspired which i saved in my computer... thought of posting it here so that atleast one of them can be beneficial for u...

- I am not what I wish to be.
I am not even what I hope to be.
But by the cross of Christ...
I am not what I was." ~John Newton

- No Guts, No Glory… No Pain, No Gain

- If God can bring you to it, He can bring you through it as well

- Your Situation is not your Destination

- Yesterday is History, Tomorrow is Mystery, Today is a Gift and that’s
why its called Present

- Yesterday is a Cancelled Cheque, Tomorrow is a Promissory Note, Today
is the only cash you have, Spent it wisely

- A person often meets his destiny on the road he chose to avoid it

- Dreams have only one owner at a time. That's why dreamers are lonely. - Erma Bombeck

- Is it dark? The morning will come? Is it winter and the flowers dried up?
the spring is not far away.

- Nurture your mind with great thoughts, for you will never go any higher
than you think... Benjamin Disraeli

- Tough times need Tough Guy, Tough times will pass but Tough Guy will stay

- Prayer brings about changes. If the situation never changes, You change,
the way you see your situation changes.

- Everybody pities the weak; jealousy you have to earn… Arnold Schwarzenegger

- He who has a 'why' to live, can bear with almost any 'how'…Friedrich Nietzsche

- I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work… Edison

- The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him
absolutely no good… Samuel Johnson

- Knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens…Jimi Hendrix

Quotes by Martin Luther King

- Only when it is dark enough can you see the stars

- If a man hasn't discovered something that he will die for, he isn't fit to live

- I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear

- Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase

- Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot
drive out hate; only love can do that

- In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends

- Life's most persistent and urgent question is, 'What are you doing for others?'

- The first question which the priest and the Levite asked was: "If I stop to
help this man, what will happen to me?" But... the good Samaritan
reversed the question: "If I do not stop to help this man, what will
happen to him?"

Quotes by Abraham Lincoln

- And in the end it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years…

- Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt…

- Character is like a tree and reputation like a shadow. The shadow is
what we think of it; the tree is the real thing

- Don't worry when you are not recognized, but strive to be worthy of recognition…

- Every man is said to have his peculiar ambition. Whether it be true or not,
I can say for one that I have no other so great as that of being truly
esteemed of my fellow men, by rendering myself worthy of their esteem

- Give me six hours to chop down a tree and I will spend the first four
sharpening the axe

- He has a right to criticize, who has a heart to help

- How many legs does a dog have if you call the tail a leg? Four. Calling a
tail a leg doesn't make it a leg

- I destroy my enemies when I make them my friends

- I don't know who my grandfather was; I am much more concerned to
know what his grandson will be

- I don't like that man. I must get to know him better

- I like to see a man proud of the place in which he lives. I like to see a
man live so that his place will be proud of him

- I remember my mother's prayers and they have always followed me.
They have clung to me all my life

- I walk slowly, but I never walk backward

- I will prepare and some day my chance will come

- My great concern is not whether you have failed, but whether you are
content with your failure

- Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's
character, give him power

- Sir, my concern is not whether God is on our side; my greatest concern
is to be on God's side, for God is always right

- Some day I shall be President

hope at least one of these was beneficial for u... keep smiling and make some one smile today

A Great Day Just Passed !!!

my day started with a call from mom, sis and my niece... as usual, mom prayed... am always blessed by her prayers... when she wishes me for my birthday, i always feel tremendous joy...

after that, there was some messy things... i locked myself out of my room with the keys inside... had to look for the spare key for 3 hours... i slept in the lounge in between... i watched tv... then again i looked for keys... in between lizy aunti called me.. she wished me too...finally i got the key... and it was raining heavily till then.. all of a sudden rained stopped once i got the key... coz of that i could go for roaming around... i did a bit of shopping... bought a shirt for myself... didn't have plan to buy... but i liked it when i saw it.. so got it then and there itself...

i came back home and had shower... went to meet alvin for the "surprise" birthday dinner... we went to the thai restaurant...jeremy, jonathan, yu xiu, alvin, luis, eve, suween and reb turned up...they gifted me with a Manchester Utd t shirt which i was about to buy last saturday...thank god i didn't...a a beautiful card with lot of writings.. i loved reading each and every one of the entries...felt very touched... thank god for providing people who care for me... i am blessed !!!!!!!!!!! blessed abundantly!!!! had desert after that... enjoyed the whole thing...

when i reached home, my land lady had a card for me... and she noted down my birthday from IC when i gave it to her first time... and she remembered to wish me... i was so happy to see the card.. that was indeed a surprise...

i thank god for everything he is providing me.. friends, gifts, calls, everything...God is good... All the Time!!! thank you everyone for the love shown to me...

once again, Happy Birthday to Me...

ITS AUG 27... THE DAY GOD CHOSE TO BLESS EARTH!!!

August 27 is the day God chose to bless earth 27 years before...Yes... Happy Birthday to myself... if you ask me whether i am excited, i don't know what to say... when i think of birthday, its like getting older by an year... i am 1 year older than what i was till yesterday... but still some kind of excitement is there somewhere in my heart... not at the bottom of my heart coz according to JS, thats where all the shit lies... so somewhere in my heart there is an excitement, but not at the bottom...

happened to start my day amazingly...was talking to my sister in christ, shandy, around midnight and when it struck 12, she wished me and prayed one of the best prayers i ever had someone pray for me...it lifted my spirits greatly... she has been a blessing in my life and so was she today too... thank god for my sister...

happened to meet up with some of my friends from melbourne today... had a good time... talked about lot of things while having good indo food...was a good time...was a good day... will update more later sometime today, if i happen to log in... now off to sleep... will wake up in the morning and decide how my day will be...

keep smiling and make someone smile... God Bless

9 days at Home

had to travel back to india on 7th of this month after getting call from home saying dad is sick... he was crying aver the phone saying he desperately wants to see me... i went home the next day... the night he saw me, he slept after many sleepless nights... next day, things look good till around 10 in the evening... around then, dad's body started to swell up and pain started from his throat to his stomach and on his legs... we rushed him to the hospital... that's where the 'happenings' of my my trip started... soon after dad was in the casualty, a lady was brought there... she was much younger than dad... she died right in front of my eyes... doctor did everything to save her... i could see the fear in her eyes...struggling to breathe... and passed away... soon after that dad was admitted in the hospital...

in the course of next one week, too many things happened... i saw 3 major accidents... don't know the outcome of 2... but in one, a 23 year old boy passed away on the spot... i nearly escaped from 2 accidents... in one i would have gone beneath a truck and in another avoided a head on collision with a car while over taking another... could sense the protection of god heavily... am typing this entry just coz god was gracious to grand me life till today... thank god for His protection over me...

whole week was stressful and tiring... but no way i could show that i was stressed... so i laughed and made people around me laugh... my niece had a good time and so did my sister even though she ended up doing an awful lot of cooking... she cooked lot of things for me... she made sure that i was not missing mom... even after eating good food, i lost 3kgs in a weeks time... guess loss of weight had something to do with stress... somehow, couldn't sleep properly when i was there... there were days when i had only 4 hours of sleep... wanted to sleep in the plane while returning... but a baby was crying for the whole 4 hours...guess he/she was have ear pain... so can't complain... couldn't sleep enough yesterday too... so i think i have to sleep as soon as i reach home today... having bad headache already...

didn't get much time with mom or dad... dad was discharged from hospital on saturday... i brought him home by 5 in the evening and by 9, i was rushing to the airport... so kind of sad for not able to spend enough time with them... especially mom... guess i am missing her... i wish i could have a long weekend and go on a trip all by myself... any place will do... but need a break... may be a small back packing trip...just roam around as much as i can and relax... as of now.. i think, bintan will be a good choice as i can't get a long weekend...

but, during this time in india, i managed to be in the rain... walk and ride a scooter in the rain... i was waiting for that for long time...enjoyed it even though i did it when i was having flu...

back in singapore, yesterday was one of my friends birthday...celebrated with her... went to my cousin's place to pass him some eatables which his mom asked to pass to him... and now back to work... with awful lot of things waiting for me...

if you happen to read this post... plz do pray for dad and mom... keep smiling... and forget not to make someone laugh...God bless

2 Days-------2 Movies

weekend was good... happened to see 2 movies in 2 days... first time after leaving india 4 1/2 years back, i am being a frequent visitor to the cinema... these days, the frequency is getting higher... watched The Dark Knight on saturday and Mummy on sunday...

The Dark Knight

i think the movie should have been named after the joker (Ledger made this charector a memorable one) coz he was the one who kept the show alive... i don't see any big role for batman in there... he didn't have much impact too i guess... what ever joker wanted took place except in the case of blasting of ships... i liked something what Harvey Dent (Aaron Eckhart) said in the movie... "the darkest night comes before dawn"... thats true...when you feel that you are going through the darkest times in your life, just believe that the dawn is nearing... its not far...

i will give this movie a rating of 7/10... quite good show... (to be honest, i was thinking it was going to be those scary kind of movies which i hate, but it was not)

The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor

watched yesterday... first time i am seeing Jet Li in a negative role... don't know whether he has acted in other movies also in a negative role, coz i haven't seen much of his movies... overall, the movie was good and general yang's assistant looked pretty too... can give a rating of 5.5 or 6 out of 10... i would give better rating to Mummy Returns...

before going for movie yesterday, i attended first lesson of CCLT... was good... felt sleepy... but preferred not to as i think the time i spent in CCLT is going to be useful... struggles are there... but that doesn't mean that i should hide from the purpose God has for me... i wish that i won't fall short of the destiny He has kept for me....

overall the weekend was good... service at church was good... liked P. Gerald's message... he put it together well... had lunch with cell mates... enjoyed everything during the weekend... weekends like this will be good... thank god for the weekend...

now its lunch time... let me go and eat...take care and keep smiling...

Is Promotion Good or Bad??

sometimes its very hard to see some people behaving to others just because someone got a promotion… jealousy can take weird forms in different stages of life… a recent example i saw is when one of my colleagues got promoted… she is quite hard working… i have never seen her coming late to work… she is good to others… and my manager recently sent out a mail saying that she got promoted to senior engineer… the next thing i see is a group of my colleagues standing together and showing their disappointment at the decision… in the group, there were those people who were expecting a promotion… but what made me confused was, in that group, there were those people who is very friendly to my colleague who got promoted… they have breakfast, lunch and tea together everyday… always they are together sharing jokes and making fun of other people… but after the email came, none of them talk to the person who got promoted… no smiles too…

now, my colleague didn’t go to our manager and ask for promotion… she is not a high profile person… she doesn’t go around bad mouthing people like some others who were expecting promotions… but from the way my other colleagues behave to her, i get a feeling that she had committed a terrible sin by being promoted… when i congratulated her after few ours of seeing the email by manager, she told me that i was the first person to wish her and its good to see a smiling face, when many so called good friends stopped smiling… i hope and pray that i won’t be like my other colleagues at any stage of my life… i pray that i will be able to rejoice with those who rejoice and weep with those who weep… coz that’s what Christ wants from me…

as far as other things are concerned, life is going on… started reading a book yesterday… ‘running with the horses’ by Eugene Peterson… from the initial few pages, i get a feeling that it’s a good book… its based on the book of Jeremiah… he is one of the prophets i like the most… that’s what made me buy the book…

work is going on smoothly… so is life… nothing to complain as He is in control… u guys take care and keep smiling…

FLEXTRONICS!!!! The company to be in ??

happened to read news about flextronics in 'my paper'... they are saying someone is admiring flextronics coz they are committed to staff... i didn't know how to respond to such things... so does most of the people whom i work with in flextronics... my strong recommendation to all people who read my paper is better to use 'my paper' to play sudoku rather than reading the news that comes in it…



a fortnight of bad news is nearing its end… it has been tough time… first got to know that dad was hospitalized… then about his tests… manager tendered his resignation (he did it today... guess he did it after reading the news in my paper)… tricky times… now confused with what i should do… should i look for new jobs or should i continue here without knowing what my future holds for me… if i happen to find a job and leave, its like asking the whole team to drown and die… but if I don’t find a new job, its like giving a dagger in the hands of management and asking them to stab me… need heavenly guidance… need it a lot…i am confused… but that doesn’t mean that i am worried…i know i am safe in His arms… He knows whats the best for me… and He will provide me with everything i need at the time of my need…


today got plans to go for the book sale by national library at expo… hopefully will find good books... when stressed, its better to read... wish i could have those childhood story books to read... i used to laugh reading those... and i love to laugh... need to check with mom whether she has kept any of those...


nothing much to write other than this... so till the time of next update... bye bye

keep smiling...

After a Long Time

haven’t been blogging for a while now other than copy-pasting some messages which made me think… life has been a kind of mess recently… was stressed out completely… family… work… sometimes i forgot to smile… but at the end of the day, i can’t do any thing about any of those…

had a high tea yesterday sponsored by manager… something that looked like a last supper… manager was moody… i felt sad for him… poor man… he was sincere in his words… i might stop looking for other jobs and support my manager in this current product transfer… may be i will loose my job after that… but still, i don’t feel like looking for another job… i should support this project… He will take care of me coz He has always provided for me at the right time and right place…

tomorrow, will have first cell session with the multiplied cell… still having kind of mixed feelings… hopefully everything will be alrite once it starts…

have heard recently that people are noticing or sensing things about me… doesn’t look like a good sign… so let me be more careful from now on…

that’s all for now… will write again when i feel like… may be today itself or after a month… till then keep smiling and make someone smile…

NB. i completed 50 posts... never thought i would reach this far when i started this blog....

Forget Your Past, God Has A New Beginning for You

So when they had dined, Jesus saith to Simon Peter, Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me more than these? He saith unto him, Yea Lord, thou knowest that I love thee. He saith unto him, feed my lambs. John 21:15

Listen, if you're going to walk in the new beginning that God has for you; then you're going to have to let go of the past. Starting now, forget about what you did, or what they did and look toward a new beginning in your life. Today is your opportunity for a fresh start, but letting go of the past is key.

Peter is a good example of a man who had to forget his past. He denied the Lord three times and he even cursed while doing it. However, when that cock crowed three times, he knew he had blown it.

It hurt Peter so much that he had denied his Lord and he had trouble getting past that. In fact, even after Jesus had risen from the dead and appeared to the disciples, Peter was still in a depressed state. You see, Peter should have been out preaching that, 'Jesus has risen from the dead and he is alive!' But instead he decides to go fishing and all the other disciples went with him.

So in John 21, verse 15, Jesus asks Peter, Do you love me more than what you use to do, your old profession? Do you love me more than your self-pity?

Remember this: you can't have a new beginning if you're stuck in the past feeling sorry for yourself and drowning in self-pity. Sometimes self-pity feels good because people will sympathize with you and try to cheer you up; but Jesus didn't come to Peter with that stuff. He said, "Peter, do you love me more than this?"

And Simon Peter answered, "Lord, you know I love you." Jesus said, "Feed my lambs." Then Jesus asks Peter the same question two more times and again Peter's reply was Lord, you know I love you, for you know all things." Jesus says, then get out there and feed my sheep.

Then Peter gets it. He understands, I'm not supposed to be sitting here doing nothing. I have a new ministry. Jesus has forgiven me. He's telling me to go preach even after I denied him.

Now, you might have denied the Lord and done some things you shouldn't have done, but if you will repent, God will forgive you. There is fresh mercy for you every morning. God is still calling you. He is saying, come to me, I have a new beginning for you.

Scripture References: Philippians 3:12-15; John 21:3-17

This message is by Bishop Keith Butler

Press On and Reach Forward

The way to progress is not to try harder in the flesh but to believe stronger in the spirit. The flesh is weak (Mark 14:38), and fortifying it through resolutions will only get us so far. We need the power of the Spirit of God working in our hearts and transforming our minds to provide lasting change. Discipline is only as good as the faith of the person exerting it. May God increase our faith as we rest in Him Who is the Faithful One!

Paul had done a lot of ministry by the time he wrote the letter to the Philippians. Yet he correctly understood that even he had not arrived yet. He was still short of being perfected. Did he give up? Did he lose hope? Did he decide to make some fleshly resolutions and simply try harder? Philippians 3:13-14 says, "Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Paul's resolutions were of faith and centered on Christ. He accepted the fact that he was a work in progress. He didn't beat himself up for his imperfections, nor did he gloat in his successes. The sum of everything to Paul was Christ Who was by faith sanctifying him and Who would one day perfect him (Galatians 2:20). So his focus was not on perfecting himself but on the God Who would eventually perfect him. By the end of this year of service to the Lord, hopefully he could look back and see how God had conformed his heart and mind to be more in line with the character and mind of Christ.

Paul emphasizes forgetting what was behind. He is not saying to forget all things past, for we are to remember the sacrifice of our Lord and how God has worked in the Scriptures, even meditating upon them. In his letters, Paul references the past many times, particularly as he shares his own conversion experience. Paul's point is not to forget the past altogether but to stop dwelling on past sin, defeat, and failures.

We must make an intentional choice to leave the garbage and disappointments behind, for they can single-handedly cripple us from effective service and ministry. We are to fix our eyes on Christ, the author and perfecter of our faith (Hebrews 12:2). It accomplishes nothing of spiritual value to dwell on sin, hurt, suffering, or difficulty. We are to dwell on Christ and look forward to what He is going to do. We should enter each successive phase of life with hope of what God can do, not living mired in failures of the past.

There are things that we, like Paul, wish we could have done differently, but Paul doesn't dwell there. He chooses to reach forward and press on toward the goal. He is focused on the future such that his future hope impacts his present. We need to live in light of finishing our race in Christ strongly even if we have had a few, or many, poor early stages. We must reach for the prize, running as if we want to win (1 Corinthians 9:24). Each day, we must set our focus by faith on the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. This is a call toward holiness, growth, sanctification, and maturity in Christ. It is a call toward eternal priorities, and it is a call toward putting our faith in what God can do. If we want to suffer another year of failed resolutions, we can dwell on the past, stay mired in sin, and not even attempt to reach forward. But we must press on in faith, trusting God that He will cause all things to work for our good. May God's glory be lifted high in our lives this upcoming year, and may we let our future hope of glory impact how we live each day in the present. May God give us strength to press on and reach forward, and may God grant us faith to believe that God is able even when we are very unable. One day, by faith, we will reach our goal, but it will only be because of Christ at work in and through us. To Him be the glory both now and on that wonderful day.

This message is by Brent Barnett

Want to Walk in Rain

haven’t been blogging for a long while now… kind of lazy again… and didn’t have much to write too…

last week, little zaccheus was born… went to see him… I was quite eager to see him… he looks more like esther I guess… now I need to make schemes to make him a Man U fan… hihi

i terribly feel like walking in the rain… even riding a motor bike or bicycle would do… when it’s a heavy downpour… missing those monsoon days in india… missing the smell of the earth at the start of monsoon… those days when i used to get drenched and reach home, either amma or chechi will be there to dry my hair with the towel… but till my hair dries, they will keep nagging for getting myself drenched rather than finding a shelter…

have been to the cinema more often recently… watched kungfu panda and you don’t mess with zohan… enjoyed kungfu panda… especially liked master oogway… he sounded like my uncle who is always positive about life… i also want to be like him… always positive… a perfect optimist… guess it will take long time and much more experiences to be like that… but i won’t give up…

a couple of statements, which i like from kungfu panda were,
1. A person often meets his destiny on the road he chose to avoid it
2. Yesterday is History, Tomorrow is Mystery, Today is a gift and that’s why its called Present.

in church last week, happened to hear another version of the second statement, from Ps. Gerald,
‘Yesterday is a cancelled cheque, Tomorrow is a promissory note, Today is the only cash you have, Spend it wisely’

just now chatted with k. yudah… as usual, he made my day… that old man always makes me laugh and lifts my spirits…

now don’t tell anyone that a am chatting and blogging while at work… keep smiling and make someone else smile… God Bless

happened to read one of my favorite poems, The Highwayman by Alfred Noyes...

There is None like U

today morning onwards a song kept coming to my mind... i had a very busy and tough day... but still this song kept coming again and again... so now am listening to the song in youtube...

There is none like You

No one else can touch my heart like You do

I could search for all eternity long and find

There is none like You

Your mercy flows like a river wide

And healing comes in Your name

Helpless children are safe in Your arms

There is none like YouThere is none like You

No one else can touch my heart like You do

I could search for all eternity long and find

There is none like You

what the song says is true... even if i am in a very bad situation, i can take comfort in the truth that there is no one like my God... He is good, All the time...

weeks are passing by... i am thinking of visiting my parents and my sister back in india... have to plan something for late august or early september as my friend's wedding also is around that time...

even though i was not at my best for a few days now, things have been taken care bof well by God... current project i took up in office nearly ended today... tomorrow will have a trial run and hopefully everything will be ok...

if any of u are reading this blog and if u feel like dropping a word of prayer for me, go ahead... it will be highly appreciated... do keep smiling and don't forget to make someone laugh... God bless

4 Goals Let in... 3 my fault!!!!

what can i say about the week that just passed by?? may be can call it a week of mixed fortunes... good things... bad things... tougher injury... bad score line... went prawning yesterday which i liked even though i did nothing useful there... Man U won...K Yudah came... but in the midst of this, am i seeing only the bad things that happened? God has always been good to me... then why am i hesitating to trust in Him completely? am i taking decisions on my own without consulting Him? or am i not hearing the Shepherd's voice properly... may be i got my own reasons to take steps or decisions like that... but won't it make Him sad since He has always been good to me...

was wondering yesterday, whether i still got that passion in me which i had for different things... especially soccer...everytime, i am eager to play a game...but i didn't concentrate in yesterday's game... it cost us the match... i was the only one to be blamed... mis-timed my run badly... slid for the ball, but landed in an awkward position and injured my right knee... but why should i let myself down and feel low and loose my passion for things... am i loosing sight of my focus??

may be its because of the season of the year... i think, i need to sleep more these days... otherwise, i can be stressed out easily... let me start hoping that i will be able to sleep long hours... time to hibernate... and let me trust in God more and more...

again, this blog update is during office hours... dont tell this to anyone.. but today i am feeling a bit bored...

A Great day just Passed by!!!!!!!

Yes!!!!!!!!!!! after a long wait, i got to meet K Yudah today along with Ps. Russel Aims... had one of the best days i ever had in singapore...Ps. Russel prayed for me... and K Yudah prayed for me too...again, as he did always, he prayed the best prayer for me... i was in need of all the words that came out of his mouth in prayer... he prayed that god will give me that something which i had before but i lacked over the last one year...

i am tremendously blessed because of him... he has always cried with me when tears came down from my eyes... he has always been there to laugh with me...today also he was no different... thank god for him...

after prayer we had a good fellowship at one of the seafood restaurants at ECP... had a lot to eat.. chilli crab, prawns, fish, veggie, and lot more... had to eat till i couldn't move otherwise food would have been wasted... but K Yudah and Ps. Russel enjoyed the food... and that makes me happy...

when i went to drop them at the airport, kind of felt that i miss the whole of melbourne quite badly... thoughts of going back are coming... may be one day i will go back to live there... lets see how things turn out to be... let God fulfil His will in my life... i prefer to have my wishes alligned to His will... coz K Yudah always says that the safest place to be is in the will of God...

thats it for today... keep smiling and make somebody smile... God bless

Hector or Achilles... Who was the Hero???

“Let them say that I lived during the time of Hector, who tamed forces,
And let them say that I lived during the time of Achilles”

with that sentence ‘Troy’ ends. I watched the movie again yesterday. Was wondering, will I ever be able to leave a legacy behind me. Or will I live and die like any other person on earth. Then what’s the meaning life carries if its to be lived like any other person and die like any other person. That’s why I always believe in dreams. I know that I should dream big. And if everything is going to happen according to the dreams I had, it will be great. Lets see whether it will happen that way or not.

now desperately waiting for K. Yudah to be here on Saturday… during all my tough times during the last 4 years, he had been around as a good listener and a good mentor… this time also, the time of his arrival can’t be better than this Saturday… he will be having a message for me and so does Ps. Russel Aims…

was able to talk to Gitau recently… he was my house mate and best friend while I was in Melbourne…the Kenyan man had a lot to talk about Africa… he taught me a lot about Africa… we both could shout all night long when Man U was playing… even when they played Arsenal, we were the only 2 Man U fans in the middle of scores of Arsenal fans… still we could shout and scream when Scholes drilled in that goal from just outside the 6 yard box in 2004 FA Cup semi final… we cooked chicken together which always turned out to be gross but still ate it till it finished making fun of each others part in the cooking series… thank god, he is doing well even though there were political tensions in Kenya, he is safe… God bless u my brother!!!

Mothers...

When God was creating mothers, He was into His sixth day of "overtime" when an angel appeared and said, "You're doing a lot of fiddling around on this one."

And God said, "Have you read the specifications on this order? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic. Have 180 moveable parts....all replaceable. Run on black coffee and leftovers. Have a lap that disappears when she stands up. A kiss that can cure anything from a broken leg to a disappointed love affair. And, six pairs of hands." The angel shook her head slowly and said "Six pairs of hands....no way."

"It's not the hands that are causing me problems," said God, "It's the three pairs of eyes that mothers have to have.

"That's on the standard model?" asked the angel.

God nodded. "One pair that sees through closed doors when she asks, 'What are you kids doing in there?' when she already knows. Another here in the back of her head that sees what she shouldn't but what she has to know, and of course, the ones here in front that can look at a child when he goofs up and say, 'I understand and I love you', without so much as uttering a word."

"You should scrap it and start over." said the angel.

"I can't," said God, "I'm so close to creating something so close to myself. Already I have one who heals herself when she is sick...can feed a family of six on one pound of hamburger...and can get a nine-year-old to stand under a shower."

The angel circled the model of a mother very slowly. "It's too soft," she sighed.

"But tough," said God excitedly. "You cannot imagine what this mother can do or endure."

"Can it think?" asked the angel.

"Not only think, but it can reason and compromise." said the Creator.

Finally, the angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek. "There's a leak!" she pronounced. "I told you you're trying too put too much into this model."

"It's not a leak" said God "it's a tear."

"What's it for?" asked the angel.

"It's for joy, sadness, disappointment, pain, loneliness, and pride."

"You are a genius!" said the angel.

God looked somber and said softly ......"I didn't put it there."

Author Unknown.

got to see this in some website... indeed God did a great job when he created mothers...

today is a happy day... JS and Esther got baptized... JS didn't mess up things on stage as i thought he would... he did pretty well up there...YX and veron too got baptized along with little Gideon... happy for all of them and thanking God for their lives...

on a smaller note... got thrashed by Aldersgate 5 -2... we played a very good game except for a crazy 5 minutes in second half where they whacked in 3 goals... we did much better that what we thought we would... will be going out for dinner soon... take care...Laugh and make someone laugh... God Bless

A Tribute to the Lady I love the Most

this love affair starts from time unknown to me... a time when i was still in her womb...she told me i used to move around a lot while i was there... she told, when i started growing in her womb, i was not alone, there was a tumor also growing alongside me... doctors told her that i won't be born... she chose not to believe in them but chose to believe in the God who promised her a son... she went through a surgery... the pain was a lot...tumor was removed... but doctors told her, there's only a very little chance to have me without any defects... it was most likely that i will be born without limbs...again she chose to believe in the God who promised a healthy baby... and God, like He did, every other time, honoured her simple faith in Him... she worked till the previous day of my birth, exercised a lot as in walking long distances and doing house work, so as to keep me healthy...

once out of her womb, i wasn't nice at all... have always been naughty... she was forced to send me to play school when i was only 2 1/2 years old... coz the house was a mess everyday when she came back from work... when i became more and more naughty as i grew up... she started getting worried but never showed that outside... she started fasting for me every wednesdays and she continued that till i was around 17... those days when i woke up earlier than usual, i used to see her sitting some corner of the room with her eyes closed... a tear drop outside her eyes... she was praying for me every day without fail...

as i grew up, i was changing for the worse... there was not even a single day i had in school without any complaints... always picked up fights... stole money from home...change marks in the report card...tell lies for everything...and the list went on and on...still she kept praying the same way she did... a time came when i was 13, i was so naughty, that my parents were told by my school that they can't have me there anymore...time was too little to find admission in another school... and i saw my mom pleading to the principal (first time i saw her pleading to any person)... i felt i was the worst son on planet earth...

her health wasn't good all these while... one of the disc on her spine slips everytime... this caused immense pain for her... but still when i visit her in the hospital she always gave me the best smile she ever had... even in that pain she would hug me and kiss me... and when i leave her room, i used to hear her cry coz of pain...

years passed by so quickly... i left for studies to another town and stayed in a hostel...still i always tried to stay close to troubles... coz i was always proud, that nothing bad will happen to me coz i got someone back home who everyday kneel down near her bed with a bad spine and cry out to God to gaurd me wherever i was... even with that kind of prayer, i managed to get one suspension from school while i was doing engineering...

time still passed... i went overseas for my master's...i came down to singapore after that...still she kept on praying for me... last year when i went through the toughest time in my life, i went back home... she came to pick me up at airport...hugged me... i felt my fears and pain vanished... we reached home... i lied down with my head on her lap... she just ran her hand through my hair... tears were flowing down my eyes... she cried along with me...she didn't bother me with anything during my stay there... but i could see the mental pain she was in during the time...i never ate properly... she didn't force me to eventhough she cooked what ever i liked to eat... i never prayed nor read the bible... she didn't ask me to but she knew that her prayers will never be in vain...when i was about to return to singapore... at the airport she hugged me and kissed me on my forehead... i could see a similar tear drop in her eyes to the one which i saw years back while she was praying during those early hours of the day without disturbing my sleep...

today, on the eve of another mother's day, when i look back to those 26 years i passed through, what else can i thank God for other than the life of this wonderful woman... 26 years has changed her a lot... now her hairs are white mostly... she doesn't have the mental strength she used to have before and neither got the physical strength... but one thing kept growing, her faith in the Almighty... i see in her a lady who never got a chance to live for herself...always she has been living for someone else... she took care of her parents well till she got married... after that she looked after her in-laws even though she was treated very badly by all of them... she took leave from work for long time to look after her mother in law who was bed-ridden...after that she lived for my sister and myself...now she looks after my dad who is almost bed- ridden... a life that has got meaning... a life thats worthy of living...

what have i given her back?? or will anything i give be good enough to thank her for her life or what she has done for me till now?? all i can say to her is THANK YOU AMMA... I LOVE U MORE THAN ANYTHING ON PLANET EARTH... FOR ME NOTHING IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN U... I AM BLESSED COZ U GAVE ME BIRTH... COZ U BROUGHT ME UP... COZ U CRIED OUT TO GOD FOR ME... AND ALL WHAT I AM TODAY AND WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO BE IN FUTURE IS BECAUSE OF THOSE TEARS THAT CAME FROM YOUR EYES....LOVE U AMMA....

yes... i wish a Blessed Mother's day to all the mothers and the mothers to be (especially my good friend and sis Eleesl)...

Preliminaries or Myanmar???

For the past few days, everyday when I read a newspaper, no matter which one, Sun, Mirror, BBC, Timesonline, Reuters, Independent, Indian Express or Kerala Kaumudi, they got a lot to write about Preliminaries in US…is that something that really matters?? Does it really matters whether its Clinton or Obama or McCain the next President?? Is the American policies going to change??? Or is it just another American hype to get people more interested in a country called United States of America?? Have never seen in the past, the preliminaries being so important… tens of thousands have been dying in Myanmar coz of Cyclone Nargis… is that given enough coverage by any of these news broadcasters?? Priorities of people have been changing drastically… similarly priorities of news broadcasters also might be changing… earlier broadcasters wanted to give the most striking news… now broadcasters want to give the news that would give them more coverage… there is a big difference between the two…its high time, journalists go back to stick on to the basics of journalism… otherwise, reading news will become a kind of formality for people like me… but then, who cares about me???

Work has been easy for the past 2 days… but the pain in my jaw is increasing daily… finding it difficult to open my mouth to eat, yawn or sneeze… need to go to a doctor one of these days… but then again, am I not the person who hates to take medicines?? Especially antibiotics… I hate them to the core… would have been good if the doctor can say BHOOM and my pain is gone…

Btw, don’t tell anyone that I am updating blog during work hours… already got enough yesterday for taking MCs…it was an all sided attack... i was standing like a chicken that was rounded by eagles... so now no more MC, even if I am sick I guess…:(

30 Questions & Answers about Me...

1. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN A THEATER:

Cycle (went with GR and Danny…that was a horrible thing to watch… especially wasting $12… Guess Vineeth Sreenivasan should continue with singing rather than trying to imitate his father…)

2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?

‘Don’t Waste Your Life’ by John Piper. K. Yudah (my pastor in Melbourne) introduced the book to me. Am enjoying it… planning to continue ‘Christ: A Crisis in the life of God’ by Jack Miles.

3. FAVORITE BOARD GAME?

As usual, Chess. Have been playing online a lot these days…

4. FAVORITE MAGAZINE?

Forgot the days when I last read a magazine… So I guess, TIME and NEWSWEEK are still my favorites

5. FAVORITE SMELLS?

The smell of earth after the first rain. (Don’t have that in Singapore… have to wait till I go back to Trivandrum… and hoping that it will rain when I am there…)

6. FAVORITE SOUND?

Rain… Yes, again its something to do with rain… I love the sound of rain falling on asbestos, sound of rain in the jungle… sound of heavy rain falling on water surface… rain falling on steel plates… RAIN RAIN RAIN

7. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?

When I want to do something but don’t have courage to do it… I hate that kind of feeling (am i going through that now?)…

8. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE?

“I will sleep for 5 more min”

9. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?

Dhabas (Roadside shops in India)… they give the most unhealthy food… but got the best taste…

10. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME?

Guess I should find my future wife first…. Then only need to think of kids and their names… Can ask my future wife whether she will let the child’s name be Keane or Cantona or Schmeichel… Hopefully she won’t beat me up…

11. FINISH THIS STATEMENT. "IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY I'D...?

“Resign my job, hop on to a flight that takes me to some place that’s far… buy a farmhouse near the lake… bring my cell mates there to party… Have BBQ every other night…

12. DO YOU DRIVE FAST?

Not anymore… those days are gone when I could drive at 100 when the speed limit is 60… now would drive at 60 if the speed limit is 60… or may be even at 55…

13. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?

I don’t need anything for a sound sleep… let alone STUFFED ANIMAL…can sleep anywhere… anytime…thank God

14. STORMS-COOL OR SCARY?

Last Time I was in a mini-storm, I thought it will make me fly and bash me on to the nearby wall… so indeed its scary… but to see the tall trees swaying in the storm is good... so storms are scary as well as cool...

15. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?

Fiat (Premier Padmini)

16. FAVORITE DRINK?

Ice Milo with more milo and more milk…

17. FINISH THIS STATEMENT, "IF I HAD THE TIME I WOULD ..... write that book.(Am I kidding? I would sleep longer. )

18. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS ON BROCCOLI?

I eat everything that’s beneath sky… so forget about stem… I will eat the root of broccoli also…

19. IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR, WHAT WOULD BE YOUR CHOICE?

Would I do that??? If I do… may be brown…

20. NAME ALL THE DIFFERENT CITIES/TOWNS YOU HAVE LIVED IN.

Not a big list… Trivandrum (that’s my home)… Cochin (did lot of freud things there in a period of 3 ½ years)…Melbourne (missing that place a lot… hell lot)… and now in Singapore (believing that this is the place of my Destiny…)

21. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?

Football (in some places they call it Soccer too)… Cricket, Basketball, Tennis, Badminton, Hockey…

22. FAVORITE FOOD

Now that can be a big list…Happy with anything that contains Beef or Pork (need to be well done though)… Hokkien Mee in the food court opposite my block is quite good (have been having that at least twice a week lately)… Stingray at East Coast Park…Mussels at Fish & Co…Kavurma Kebab from Footscray, Melbourne… Donuts sold by an old man in Melbourne… Fish Curry and Tapioca from toddy shops in Kerala…and the list goes on and on…

23. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED?

Haven’t looked beneath my bed for long time… need to have a look one of these days to know whether there is some nest of some birds or reptiles…

24. WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE BORN AS YOURSELF AGAIN?

Yes please. Wouldn’t trade places for all the gold and silver the world has to offer.

25. MORNING PERSON, OR NIGHT OWL?

Night night night… I hate early mornings… Guess I have Morning Sickness…hihihi

“They called me an owl
For I keep the stars company.
And when the world stirs to life,
I turn my back upon it.
And like the wicked vampire
I return at dusk
To suck life out of night.”

26. OVER EASY, OR SUNNY SIDE UP?

Sunny Side Up. Isn’t that a cheerful way to start a day??

27. FAVORITE PLACE TO RELAX?

In the shade of the trees in a lonely island which I will buy for myself… But till then my bed would be good enough

28. FAVORITE PIE?

American Pie (laughed my heart out seeing that)… An apple pie would be ok… but I don’t eat much pies

29. FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?

Rum n’ Raisin, Mango

30. OF ALL THE PEOPLE YOU TAGGED THIS TO, WHO'S MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST?

I am not going to tag this to anyone… if anyone reads this here.. please feel free to answer those 30 questions

GOT TO SEE MY RAINBOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today is a very special day for me... If u guys remember, in one of my previous entries, i said i terribly wanted to see a rainbow... God showed me one... and its a very special one... coz it came when there was no rain... this is the first time i am seeing one when there was no rain... it didn't have the shape of a bow... but it had all the colors in it... i wanted to take a pic and put it here.. but couldn't.. coz i was in the field playing soccer... i was excited... JS was nearby.. i asked him whether it can be considered a rainbow... he said it doesn't have the shape... but for me... its an answered prayer... an answer to some sleepless nights... something i have been waiting for last 1 month... God answered... now i need to claim my promise...

first thing i did after seeing the rainbow was to let in a funny goal.. made a blunder... worst thing was JS was there to see the game... but still the team won 7 - 4... so it doesn't really matter at the end of the day...all what matters is that i got to see my rainbow...

was pretty sad yesterday onwards after Man U lost to chelsea yesterday... but now no longer sad... coz i got to see my rainbow... hahahaha... today service was very good... worship, Ps. Bee's leading... Ps. Gerald's message (usually i dont like his messages).. but today it was very good...

got to buy a shirt and a t-shirt... So all together it was one of the best sundays i ever had in life...i thank God for this day.. let Him give me grace to claim my promise.. and i pray that He will open ways too...

Thank you for praying for me... if u r reading this, it means u have made a difference in my life... I thank God for u.... Keep smiling and make someone smile too... God Bless

let me go to sleep now..

Is this what others think of me??

Happened to take a Personality Test... not sure whether this is what other people think of me or not... but anyways, i will post it here so if anyone reads this, u can make comments...

Gopal is an optimistic individual. He is the type of person who loves exploring new places or things and a wide variety of experiences. He tends to display a natural charisma that draws others to his charm. Gopal is a very encouraging person; others are drawn to him because they find him inspirational.

A loyal friend, Gopal is patient and caring when attending to the needs of others. He is usually an even-paced individual who thrives in a peaceful, harmonious environment. He tends to be quite predictable, sticking with proven, reliable methods of dealing with situations rather than taking chances with a new, unproven approach.

Neat and orderly, others usually see Gopal as practical. He needs adequate information to make decisions, and he will consider the pros and cons. He may be sensitive to criticism, and will tend to internalize his emotions. Gopal likes to clarify expectations before undertaking new projects, and he will follow a logical process to gain successful results.

Because he cares about how others feel, Gopal may feel uncomfortable making decisions that strongly affect others. He typically encourages others to be involved in the decision making process and prefers to work in a team role. Others tend to see Gopal as agreeable and humble.

Do u agree to what is written there??